The location: Project Hollywood. I had been living there for just about six weeks. I was living as a world-renowned pick-up artist…
I was recently going through some old notebooks and stumbled across a diary entry from Project Hollywood.
As I read it, I could feel the sensations return to me and re experienced the truth of being a ‘world-class’ pick-up artist.
It’s not a pretty picture.
Let this be a warning to current PUAs or prospective PUAs. This is the true view from the top:
I am single, and I feel loneliness ever day. I am new to LA, so my surroundings are quite unfamiliar and seemingly unfriendly. I live in a mansion in the H’wood Hills with other players, thus creating a strange undercurrent of competition, insecurity and rudeness. I ‘sarge’ in hopes of meeting a woman whom I can choose to be with, rather than one who chooses me.
I am tired of my material. Tonight, I will try something new and different:
- BF test
- “How do you guys know each other?”
- AFC talk, or build commonalities game – F.A.P., mini cold reads, adoptions
- Stories: Little Kid; Rollerblading; Theater-booger story; 1st GF-embarrassing; Albino GC
I am looking for GFs.
I must talk to hot women to keep my interest.
I want to create a connection with them.
I am alpha, I am dominant…(what does that mean to me???)
I need to go more natural, relax in the environment and be open to obvious social cues for entry
It’s painful to relive that frankly. Those goals above did NOT happen until I stopped any/all PUA related actions. I had to drop it all before any real connections could form.
They say the definition of ‘insanity’ is trying to same thing over and over again expecting a different result.
See that list of material? Those are gimmicks/routines that we were using at the time.
My solution to the loneliness and hopelessness of how I was feeling mentioned at the beginning of the entry was to try different routines. That, by definition, is insane. Oh, and hindsight verifies it – it didn’t work…not even close.
Chasing something real by running from the truth is no way to live. That’s what I was doing.
Looking for a real connection and a lasting relationship by venturing forth into the fantasy land of pick-up was, and IS, insane.
You are warned.
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